Should I? Shouldn’t I?

I got an email today from the new director (president?) (coordinator?) (enrollment specialist?) of MOPS. The person wants to know if I would like to register for the Fall semester.

The whole back story can be found here. (Let me save you a click.) MOPS is a nation world wide mothering group that stands for Mothers of Preschoolers. I went to a MOPS class last fall. MOPS is invite only. I didn’t know. I was really embarrassed. I cried. A lot.

(ETA: For clarity sake, it’s not really invite only. MOPS maintains a balanced ratio of childcare workers to children. It’s not that they want to exclude people, it’s that they don’t have enough volunteers to watch children. Last fall, the group was full.)

Yet I can’t stop thinking about this comment from [info]mandella0021:

"you know what i really like the best about your blog? is that if I saw you randomly somewhere, you are totally the type of woman that intimidates me, i am so sure is judging me, so pretty and has it all together, and wouldn’t be very fun or nice.

but you show me that you can be pretty and put together but not be a bitch. HA!!!! I just love that by reading your blog it really teaches me more not to judge b/c I could be missing out on such an awesome person due to my own preconceived notions based on fear and insecurity.

that is all, carry on :)"

Let’s get something straight: I don’t have it all together. Not even close. Am I potentially missing out on awesome people because of my own fears of rejection and insecurity? I was brave once. Do I dare set myself up for more rejection?


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